God and I

This would be the first official posting I’ve put on here regarding my relationship with God - in somewhat detail. Just this morning I woke up and realised I have to write this post, and again in my normal style of writing – without any specific outcome in mind. I ask you to please bear with me as it is quite important for me to actually say this out “loud”

I’ve made a conscious choice a little while back to live my life in a way God expects me to live. How do I know what God wants of me I hear you ask? Well, I am born and raised in a Christian home and my teachings of all my life had resurfaced in exhibitions, revelations, sporadic encounters and such that seemed too pure to not be from a Super Natural Being – yes GOD! This in respect to how and what I am taught as a Christian from my days of childhood.

No I am not converted, as I have always been a Christian by birth. Yes I am reborn as by my teachings I have learned that we have to be baptised just like Jesus was baptised by John as an adult fully submerged in water – and this in essence is me reborn.

At the moment though I struggle to allow myself to put God where He should be in my life – in the position of authority He is by default in any respect. As the creator of heaven and earth and all in it, He is a God Almighty... Now all I need to do is pray and work on cleansing my corrupt mind and surrender to what is God’s power in my life as appose to that of my own perceived power.

I am now trying anew to learn about God’s laws and commandments in the life of Donovan G. R. Muller. My desire and aspiration is to include God in all that I do and to be obedient in as much as my fallible self can and will allow.

The greatest commandment is to love God by keeping His commandments. Matthew 22:36-38 says, "'Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?' Jesus replied: 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment.'"

So here I am with certain realities I have to face, certain sacrifices I have to make and even more so realisations I must reach. This all is possible if I allow God His rightful place in my life. Yes no-one said it would be easy, but no-one told me it would be this much of a challenge either.

However, be this all as it may – it is clear and evident to me through conviction that obedience is very important in my Christian development and growth. Don’t get me wrong, I am certainly not claiming to be sanctified or righteous. Even less so without fault or sin. The truth is, because I am so sinful I need to be able to lay my burdens down at a place where I know I stand a good chance to be redeemed. Where else, but at the feet of the Lord?